The last few months have been very hard for me. I have a hard time waiting patiently. When it looked like it would be a while before His Hands would have a baby for us, I started checking into other ways to adopt from Taiwan. I've been e-mailing The Home of God's Love every couple of days begging them to give us a baby! Yesterday, they finally e-mailed me back and said "No, we will not give you a baby!". Well, they said it a lot nicer than that, but that was the gist of it. So, needless to say, I was pretty bummed all day yesterday. Last night I told Jason that I felt like we were supposed to wait for His Hands. I had read back over some things that had happened when we first started the adoption process and I remembered all the things that pointed us to His Hands. How we could afford to adopt from there. How we were the last application approved before they stopped taking apps. There were several things that made us feel like God wanted us to adopt from there. I've just been trying to hurry things up on my own! So last night, I finally accepted the fact that we were supposed to wait for our baby to come from His Hands. I fell asleep trying to resign myself to the fact that it would likely be several more months before we received our referral.
Then, this morning I checked my e-mail! There was something in my inbox that said Adoption Referral. I was thinking to myself, "HOW do I always get all these junk e-mails? That's just MEAN to get my hopes up like that!" And then I looked at it! It WAS our referral...our daughter! She was born on March 1, 2010. She is 19 days old now. She weighed 5 lbs 4 oz when she was born. She weighs 5 lbs 11 oz now. She's tiny and beautiful and WE LOVE HER!!!